For the Women!

And I'm back as promised, it's Wednesday evening, not the best weather in Toronto right now but if you're reading this, you're lucky enough :) This post isn't made to be too uplifting today just something that I chose to speak about considering all the stuff coming out in the media right now. It's come to my attention that things like harassment, sexual assault and similar issues are very much in the limelight right now. The #MeToo campaign and awareness is something so incredible. It's really amazing to see these courageous people and assault survivours (I'd rather say survivours than victims) come out and seek justice while being oppressed. Nothing is stopping them and that's how it should be. Well, yesterday on the way home from one of my evening classes I witnessed something a bit off on public transit. There was a woman that was sitting next to an old man with a bit of the shakes. His hand was shaking an awful lot though somehow it still ended up on the woman's leg. That's when he suddenly stopped shaking. The woman moved over on her seat further away from him. He placed his hand on her leg again (mind you, she's wearing a skirt with nylons underneath). This time she put her hands over his and personally moved it. She was clearly uncomfortable and the bus was pretty full so there wasn't any room for her to stand. It was a bit disturbing to see this happen because it was painfully awkward and the woman didn't say anything but as soon as the bus emptied a bit she moved seats. I know it doesn't make me right to be a bystander and see this happen but it was relatively fast and with her expressions I knew she had it handled, still I beg if anyone ever sees something like this anywhere, say something if you're able. Harassment is harassment, some people are gross, it happens and it needs to stop right!

Michi Tsunade + Shiro Takenake

He stood there looking at me in fright, what could I say? There was nothing to do, he caught me red handed and there was nothing I could tell him to convince him that this wasn't what he thought this was.

Oh God, what now?

The only one I cared about most stares at me with disgust.

" Michi ..." He says, looking down at me, his eyes are glistening, he is so lovely. "What the hell is going on here?"

" Don't sound so scared Shiro, it's fine, everything is fine." I shook my head. "Everything is fine."

Blood streamed from my bangs onto my face and dripped on the floor. The room was so quiet, I couldn't stand it. Dropping my knife on the ground I ran to hug Shiro but he pushed me away.

" Don't touch me!" He yelled. "Go away, please ..." Shiro turned away and shuddered, hugging his arms.

" Come on Shiro it was an accident," I smiled "it's not like I meant to do that, besides, this won't be for long anyways, now please let me hug you." I reached out to him and stood there helplessly as he made no effort to even look my way.

" I don't want to play anymore Michi ..." I could see the tears beginning to form in his eyes. "This isn't right." He wiped his face with his sleeve.

" It won't last for much longer ... please, just-"

" I said no." He cut me off coldly. "This isn't for me, I did not sign up for this." Shiro looked at me with sorrow in his eyes. "Let's end it."

" What? No." I cried. "You know what that means when we end it ... please, play just a bit longer Shiro we can do this together. Why don't you believe in me. I know we can do it together if you would just let me help you a bit longer ..." I walked closer to him and stared him in the eye. "You know the consequences."

" Shut up! Shut up! Shut up!" Shiro pushed me back and I fell into a pool of blood that wasn't my own. He cringed at the sound of the puddle splashing. "What have you done?" He suddenly sunk to his knees and sobbed.

" I promise when this is over we can have a better life." I pushed myself up to comfort him by rubbing my hand on his back. "We will be happy together."

No response.

Shiro took his face out of his palms to reveal blood smeared on his hands.

" What's wrong?" I asked, looking at his hands. He stayed quiet until I peered at his expressionless face and realized that he was trying to peel off his skin. It seemed as though my love was going mad.

He suddenly lunged for the knife on the floor amidst the pool of blood and I managed to pull him away. He continued to reach for it as I began kicking him to stay away. We wrestled on the bloody floor slipping and sliding all over the place until we were covered in red head to toe. I kicked the knife to my end of the room as we both stood up looking at each other angrily.

" Don't do this ..." I said. "Please!" I was out of breath. This was making me tired and blood was beginning to emit from my injuries. My thigh was aching from the stitches that were bursting open. I cried out in pain and clasped my leg with my hand quickly.

We both ran over to the knife but, I managed to get there first and slid my body across the floor to cover it. There was no way of him reaching it unless I rolled over. By this time, the stitches in my leg were completely busted open and I started to cry out in pain. Shiro let out a frustrated yell when he couldn't get a hold of the knife.

"Why are you doing this!?" He yelled out to me, standing on his feet shakily.

"I don't want a life without you Shiro." I said quietly coughing up blood. I could feel myself succumbing to my injuries. The stitches in my leg were completely open and there was an underlying pain coming from my gut.

"It doesn't have to end like this ... we are in this together aren't we?" A beat of his sweat dropped on my arm. "Aren't we!?" He sounded crazy for the first time and kicked my side violently.

"Yes." I responded, trying my best to stand up. It was so hard to even push myself up.

Finally, I got to my feet, my leg was streaming blood and I could feel my body trembling but I still held up straight. I wiped my face with my arm and stared at Shiro, he sighed and closed his eyes. Was it over? I wondered. He stretched out his arms and I smiled through the pain to give him a hug. He squeezed me tightly in his warm embrace then suddenly, a sharp pain in my stomach. Shiro grunted, he felt it too.

"A double edged knife." I said with my last breath. I felt the moisture of his tears soaking the side of my face.

Story Time!

Well, it's been a week and surprisingly, results have come in. Like I said,I really am planning on staying consistent with my blog posts this year so we're gonna see how long this goes! I'm kidding, hopefully this goes for as long as possible at least till I'm ready to officially log off. It seems that I will be going forward with releasing my story on here, I'm excited for you all to view it, I'll be updating it once a week. Perhaps normal update posts on Wednesdays and story updates on Fridays. I'll also put my story up in a different text so you'll all be able to differentiate-not that anything in this story would EVER be real for me lol. 

The story doesn't actually have a title yet, I'm very picky with it but, feel free to leave suggestions or comments or any sort of feedback in the comments or in my direct messages, I'm always up for some critique! In case any of you were wondering I'm also on Wattpad which is where I'll eventually post the whole story after I name it. 

https://www.wattpad.com/user/LynnConstance 

The first chapter will be posted after this one, there's no particular setting for it but the characters are of Japanese descent (I've been writing like they live in Japan but obviously I've never been so things might sound a bit on and off).

Anyways, feel free to reach me in the comments or through social media! xo.

Major Question;

Hello everyone! Welcome back! Hopefully the new year has brought new happiness and success to you all, it's been one hell of a ride in 2017 and honestly this year isn't looking too good from what's shown up so far in the media ... it could be worse I suppose. The chilly weather here in Toronto is also not too good, though Mother Nature is working her (slow but sure) magic. It's been a few months, talk about a bad blogger host, I apologize for being distant- things have been pretty up and down these past few months but I'm making this place a top priority for you loyal viewers! ;) 
Now I've got a serious question on the table here and I've gathered information from many other of my "fans"- I guess you could say- my inboxes on social media have been pretty busy so I want to ask: If I were to post a story (or multiple) on here, would that be of any interest to anyone? I just don't want to waste my blog space if you aren't interested or let anyone down if they're expecting my constant updates haha! I've been writing this particular story for a couple of months now and it's something modern, new, kind of creepy and a bit of romance. I've always been a big writer but, this story is probably one of my best and one I've been most serious about. 
In the particular one I'd like to upload, it has much to do with fictional police corruption and family drama- next level- family drama actually! It's quite interesting to many people I've given a taste to, that's why I'm curious if I should share lol! Certainly let me know on any of my social media (instagram: @hithereimlynn // Twitter: @Hithereimlynn) or simply in the comments and my inbox! Also, to those who are curious, don't worry- there will be normal updates along with any potential writing I may have here, thanks for reading! xo